Deliverance

by Paul
(Ypsilanti, MI United States of America)

Paul James Morphew
April, 2014

Deliverance

VERSE #1
Why is it so hard to admit
That I can’t get a grip
And I’m stuck in this pit
Of despair I forget
Cause I keep coming back to the sick
Ness to reenlist in the army for the tats and the tits
No I just can’t resist
The draining life I got that’s meaningless
And coming back to it over and over just to fix
Myself again then to reopen every wound I admit
This is the cycle of my painful exist
But you know what now I’ve had it
Took me a lifetime of denial and so many trials just to admit I’m an addict

CHORUS
I thought I had it all under control
But lies like that just kept taking me far from home
And I deny each step
Deeper and deeper until I’m off the road
Never thought it would get to this point
With so many steps so bold
Now all I can do is give it all to You
And try to face the truth
I never had control
I never had control
Man who am I kidding
I’m giving up my soul

VERSE #2
Drawn to the beauties
And every single cutie
But never in reality
Just another messed up fantasy
Tie em up and watch em scream
But don’t worry it’s just a messed up dream
Yeah now I found a way to escape but only to the extreme
And all that I’m hating just gets turned back to me
And I keep on spreading the lie that all of it’s free
Yeah it don’t hurt you and it don’t hurt me
Just another release and yeah there’s not a single fee
But all of that is just deceit Hell yeah it’s hurting
More than I care to admit deny everything
Just let it build up
Until it erupts with a fit
And it’s never enough so I deserve what I get
But I just keep on spinning
As it just keeps on winning
And I sink down deeper and deeper into the sea of the unforgiving
Far from the light and farther away from the living
Yeah I choose not to fight
After all that I’m giving
And there is no point this is my choice and so quit with the Angel on my shoulder voice
All I can see is my grave that I’m digging

CHORUS
I thought I had it all under control
But lies like that just kept taking me far from home
And I deny each step
Deeper and deeper until I’m off the road
Never thought it would get to this point
With so many steps so bold
Now all I can do is give it all to You
And try to face the truth
I never had control
I never had control
Man who am I kidding
I’m giving up my soul

VERSE #3
My eyes are burning
But still I’m not learning
Insomniac
Take it back
Cut the slack
Just a knack
Now I’m hooked
What this is whack
And I can’t face the facts
I’m in over my head
Game of jenga be playing and I’m the stack
Falling over onto the choices I’ve made
And I’m so jacked
My heads turning every which way call the priest
Nah just an act
There’s no way this is how I behave
Yeah I’m just dreaming give myself a pinch and my face a smack
Wake up tomorrow and everything will be right where it’s at
Yeah I’m fine deep breaths man I can handle
Wait a minute hold up I’m back in the hospital
Not again
I don’t understand
I didn’t even fight back
Nurse quick pump me with everything you got
I need to leave this place
STAT
CHORUS
I thought I had it all under control
But lies like that just kept taking me far from home
And I deny each step
Deeper and deeper until I’m off the road
Never thought it would get to this point
With so many steps so bold
Now all I can do is give it all to You
And try to face the truth
I never had control
I never had control
I’ll never have control
I never had control
Man who am I kidding
I’ve given up everything
And now I’ve lost my soul

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